The Present Is A Foreign Land (2022)

 

• Pocari Sweat
• 19dreams
• I Put You Through Hell
• Nevermind
• On The Wire
• Trying/Falling
• Someone/Somewhere
• Help
• The Present Is A Foreign Land
• Kids
• Going Clear
• Remember Me

Pocari Sweat lyrics - Deaf Havana

 I was on a bridge in Singapore, thinking of jumping

But then I looked up at the skyline, and it reminded me of London

Used to be my home, now it's a place I can't afford

To live in anymore and it's all my fault

You can't really be homesick when your whole life's a mess

Getting sick of my drinking? Well I couldn't care less

I fell asleep on a plane and I dreamt that we fell to our deaths

Then I woke up alone and upset

Lost count of the airports 'cause I drink to forget

Try to throw up for good luck but I've got nothing left

Jumped out of the car for a bottle of Pocari Sweat

Good god this is as low as it gets

How the hell do I come back from this?

19dreams lyrics - Deaf Havana

 It's been a minute since we believed

It's been a while since I could see

That we were all on it, we felt it honestly

I've been looking for ways to live

I've been knocked back I've left myself

To give it up and try to keep this alive

Cause time ticks on, people die

Some of us get stuck in here left behind

As we find grey hairs, change our clothes

It leaves us to wonder where in hell life goes

We're all getting jaded, losing our will

I can't help myself from wondering still:

Are we chasing the same dreams I had when I was 19?

When I was 19?

When I was 19?

When I was 19?

Are we chasing that dream?

Calm down, come down

Try and pick your head up off the ground

Cause round and round and round yeah

Won't do us any good

Cause time ticks on and life drives by

Friends feel like a portrait of a different time

When you had long hair and boundless hopes

Sewn up in your three minutes of rock and roll

But we all got jaded, lost our will

I can't help myself from wondering still:

Are we chasing the same dreams I had when I was 19?

When I was 19?

When I was 19?

When I was 19?

Are we chasing that dream?

Are we chasing that dream?

I might feel dead to the world

It's just another day

Is this my time drawing close

I'll find some other way...

To keep it going cause I'm afraid

That I've seen my death and I've felt it all subside

Maybe I've lost it, maybe we've lost it

Cause time ticks on, people die

I feel like I'm stuck in here left behind

I've found grey hairs, changed my clothes

I've been left to wonder where did my youth go?

We've all been getting jaded, I've lost my will

I can't help myself from wondering still:

Are we chasing the same dreams I had when I was 19?

When I was 19?

When I was 19?

When I was 19?

Are we chasing that dream?

Are we chasing that dream?

What did this mean, when I was 19?

When I was 19?

When I was 19?

I Put You Through Hell lyrics - Deaf Havana

 I put you through hell

But don't you know I was right there as well

I've been down so many times I just can't tell you

The choices I made that just fell through

'Cause I've been thinking

That I was the worst of us

And I was never the first to trust myself

In any place that I could fuck things up

'Cause it's my fault you've always had enough

Of my hell

Stay up

Make up

Waste it away

Hold on

I'm gone

Make it okay

Until the morning

Comes and leaves me dry

I can only try

To leave this piece of me behind

Go ahead and leave it out

I don't need reminding what I was like

I know I wasn't right

Is it all a waste of time?

Am I just chasing good trips that went bad?

Feels like they're all I ever had

Stay up

Make up

Waste it away

Hold on

I'm gone

Make it okay

Until the morning

Comes and leaves me dry

I can only try

To leave this piece of me behind

(Because I don't need it)

Stay up

Make up

Waste it away

Hold on

I'm gone

Make it okay

Until the morning

Comes and leaves me dry

I can only try

To leave this piece of me behind

(Because I don't need it)

Nevermind lyrics - Deaf Havana

 I was living out of a box

You were reliving the years you missed out on

I don't believe in god

So I ain't got a shot at redemption

And I fell out of love again

Not with you but with living in general

I lost a lot of friends, never mind

'Cause I've been on a losing streak

My hearts made of stone and I can't trust my own damn feet

To show me the right way home

It's been a hell of a year

I'm struggling to see what the next one looks like

Without you here, my love

I never enough...

I was living in a haze

Trying to make strangers feel familiar

But I needed to get away

Leave it all behind

I travelled miles, travelled miles

To end up sleeping on your floor

Now I'm not sleeping well at all, anymore

'Cause I've been on a losing streak

My hearts made of stone and I can't trust my own damn feet

To show me the right way home

It's been a hell of a year

I'm struggling to see what the next one looks like

Without you here, my love

And every time I fall asleep

I see you in my dreams but then you're gone again

Yeah, you're gone again

I can't seem to shake you off

You're everything to me just like you've always been

Like you've always been

And even if I fall asleep for a second

I see you

I see you

I see you

'Cause I've been on a losing streak

My hearts made of stone and I can't trust my own damn feet

To show me the right way home

Its been a hell of a year

I'm struggling to see what the next one looks like

Without you here, my love

Without you here

Without you here

Without you here

And I will try to be alright

On The Wire lyrics - Deaf Havana

 Could it ever be any more

Than just something I think about?

When my love feels low and my blood runs thin

I guess it's time to figure out

'Cause everything changes when the drugs run dry

And there's nothing between us

It's just bottles and bags and my tired hands

Getting over the staying up

'Cause I've been feeling older

As the nights rage

And the days roll

As the lights fade out

See me walking on a wire

Fallen down so many times

I've given up on moving higher (Higher, yeah)

I never wanted to leave you, but it's done now

You don't wanna believe me when I'm strung out

Still just walking on a wire

It's getting tighter, I'm getting tied up

(Mm, I'm getting tied up, yeah)

I've been thinking about the nights I never finished

What do they mean in time?

Staying wasted on the days, I couldn't face it

Thought I could balance on a line

But I can change

God, I've tried before

I've lost faith

And I can't lose more

See me walking on a wire

Fallen down so many times

I've given up on moving higher (Moving higher)

I never wanted to leave you, but it's done now

You don't wanna believe me when I'm strung out

Still just walking on a wire

It's getting tighter

So how could I survive

For a minute without the drive?

Every day to another class

If I could get out from my past

But I can't give it up yet

See me walking on a wire

Fallen down so many times

I've given up on moving higher

Yeah

See me walking on a wire

Fallen down so many times

I've given up on moving higher (Moving higher)

I never wanted to leave you, but it's done now

You don't wanna believe me when I'm strung out

Still just walking on a wire

It's getting tighter

I'm getting tied up

Trying/Falling lyrics - Deaf Havana

 Is this hopeless? Would I cope less

Somewhere new? Without you

Out of focus, I've been low less

Without you I feel new

I'm still open, tired, hoping

I'll make it through without you

I'm scared I've wasted all this time until now

Where is the worth in these years, broken down?

I've watched the worst of it all stutter out

Maybe I'm no better, but I'm trying

I'm wired, I'm mired, I'm out here, all uninspired - underdone

I'm over, everything I've been over-hung for too long

I'd stay gone and wake up with a headache

Just laying all empty, for who's sake could I not make it?

I'm scared I've wasted all this time until now

Where is the worth in these years, broken down?

I've watched the worst of it all stutter out

Maybe I'm no better, but I'm trying

I'm trying

Wake me up, I've been falling

I'm falling, out of love

Wake me up, I've been falling

I'm falling, out of love

Wake me up, I've been falling

I'm falling, out of love

Wake me up, I've been falling

I'm falling, out of love

I'm scared I've wasted all this time until now

Where is the worth in these years, broken down?

I've watched the worst of it all stutter out

Maybe I'm no better, but I'm trying

Someone/Somewhere lyrics - Deaf Havana (feat. IDER)

 You met me in the dark

I saw you from the train

I was wasted

You didn't look a thing like I remembered

Smiling like a kid

Hands were trembling

God what a mess I'm in

Stuck like a stranger

Stranded and nameless

Blissful and blameless

Is this when the pain kicks in?

I broke down when we got back to your house

If you can call it that

Just a makeshift room in ancient building

Covered in dust and the rain gets in through the ceiling

What have I done?

I shouldn't have come here I know

But I can't be alone...

See how we fall

After all we're just strangers

Keep me on call

Through it all

This love is faithless

I found hell

In a hotel room somewhere near the western border

All my demons stick around 'til the morning

And I must have fallen asleep

Because I woke up from the strangest dream

The ghost of you was haunting me

Nailing crosses to my feet

See how we fall

After all we're just strangers

Keep me on call

Through it all

This love is faithless

I've been crying out I'm trying to focus on the positives

In this but then

You break apart like porcelain

And I can't make you whole again

If you think this is a mess God you don't know the half of it

You never did

You break apart like porcelain

And I can't fix you

I didn't want to meet the people that you knew

But I gave in, caved, got wasted again

And played the good guy (At least I tried)

But I just wanted to die

Each glimmer of progress

Was drowned out by hopelessness

And a simple sadness so sincere

It filled my veins with fear

And I just wanted to run

To run from everything

Outrun my youth maybe shed my skin

Reverse the years of selfish sin

Climb back inside and start again

I'm done

Maybe in another life

We would be nothing but passers by

And even if I see you

You're just someone, somewhere in the dark...

Someone, somewhere in the dark

Someone, somewhere

Help lyrics - Deaf Havana

 Feeling like I fell by the wayside

And I can't get back up

Turning 31 doesn't feel right

And I still think of

When I was too young to be jaded by anything

But those days are unfamiliar

Now it's all done and I've wasted 20 years

I should have chose sleep over staying up

But I'm defenceless

I couldn't find peace in the darkness

So I numb the senses

Falling so deep, couldn't stop if I wanted to

Who should I believe?

Feeling so weak, gave up then I lost you

Am I dead or dreaming?

I'm too low to be alone

And my head is an ocean of misery

So call for help or let me go out on my own

My head is an ocean of misery

Let me go out on my own

Crying out for a lifeline

But I won't hold my breath

I'm hard to be around sometimes

And I won't forget

When I was beat up, broke down and burnt out

You helped me to my feet again

I was never there, you were never a friend

I'm too low to be alone

And my head is an ocean of misery

I'm too low to be alone yeah

So call for help or let me go out on my own

My head is an ocean of misery

Let me go out on my own

I'm drowning again

Calling for help, please let me in

Please let me in

Try being me

'Cause my head is an ocean of misery

And I'm drowning in defeat

Try being me

'Cause my head is an ocean of misery

Is an ocean of misery

The Present Is A Foreign Land lyrics - Deaf Havana

 I've been living in the present

As a foreign land, foreign land

Blurred, the days fly by, like road signs

I can't understand, understand

Wait up, I wanna take it all in

I don't see any future calling

I've lost a decade in a moment

Washed out before I even noticed

Wake up, you're not getting younger

What's time but pressure in a number?

Locked down and being left to wonder

If these hours will come back to haunt me

The past pummels me like an avalanche

I can't see, I can't breathe

Time's insidious disconnect

Eats away at me, totally yeah

Wait up, I wanna take it all in

I don't see any future calling

I've lost a decade in a moment

Washed out before I even noticed

Wake up, you're not getting younger

What's time but pressure in a number?

Locked down and being left to wonder

If these hours will come back to haunt me

Perhaps on another day, I might find some other way

To keep the fear in every second at the door

How can I reconcile this world that I don't recognise?

Nothing ever seems familiar anymore

Wait up, I wanna take it all in

I don't see any future calling

I've lost a decade in a moment

Washed out before I even noticed

Wake up, you're not getting younger

What's time but pressure in a number?

Locked down and no need to wonder

These hours are already haunting me

Kids lyrics - Deaf Havana

 Coming to terms with things on a comedown

On a train across the city, that I no longer love

Taking me straight to the edge of our nowhere town

Oh, what a pity to see the lives we let go of

Thinking back on the summer

When that even meant anything

When I was a young man

Waiting for my life to begin

We were throwing stones at the sky

Aiming for the moon

Hitting the windows on the lighthouse

We gave up too soon

With the sand at my feet

The people around were the air that I breathed

We could stay young forever

Forever

Set fire to a cruel world

And the hearts of the cool girls

Sometimes I wonder where you've been

'Cause I heard you got sober, moved away

Then someone died and you were never the same again

Guess your time came and went

With the sand at my feet

The people around were the air that I breathed

We could stay young forever

Forever

Was it all in my mind?

'Cause everyone else grew older in time

I'll be alone forever

Forever

(Forever

Forever)

With the sand at my feet

The people around were the air that I breathed

We could stay young forever

Forever

With the sand at my feet (We were just kids)

The people around were the air that I breathed (We know nothing)

We could stay young forever (We were just kids)

Together

Was it all in my mind? (We were just kids)

'Cause everyone else grew older in time (We know nothing)

I'll be alone forever (We were just kids)

Together (We were just kids)

Who knew any better than this? (We were just kids)

All the hours spent wasted (We know nothing)

We were just kids (We were just kids)

We were just kids (We were just kids)

Who knew any better than this? (We were just kids)

All the hours spent wasted (We know nothing)

We were just kids (We were just kids)

We were just kids (We were just kids)

And you can, leave home, never look back

Change your names, cover your tracks

And you might get lost from time to time

'Cause you're still just a kid trying to survive

Going Clear lyrics - Deaf Havana

 I don't know what's happening to me

I wake up soaking in my sheets

I do lines on the weekend

I do lines with my "real friends"

Don't you say a prayer for me

Sometimes I pray I die in my sleep

I do lines on the weekend

Lose time with my "real friends"

I gave up before I tried

Maybe I could tell it was over

Maybe I could tell it was over

I fall back behind my lies

Maybe I don't wanna be sober

Maybe I don't wanna be sober, yeah

So you just get lost

In the pages of the books you love

And inexpensive wine

Is keeping you numb for the mean time

And I always try to stumble home before you go to sleep

But the devil is calling me

I do lines on the weekend

I do lines with my "real friends"

I gave up before I tried

Maybe I could tell it was over

Maybe I could tell it was over

I fall back behind my lies

Maybe I don't wanna be sober

Maybe I don't wanna be sober, yeah

I could tell it was over, it was over

I could tell it was over, tell it was over

I don't know what's happening to me

I wake up soaking in my sheets

Lose time on the weekend

I gave up before I tried

Maybe I could tell it was over

Maybe I could tell it was over

I fall back behind my lies

Maybe I don't wanna be sober

Maybe I don't wanna be sober, yeah

Remember Me lyrics - Deaf Havana

 Maybe I was a liar

I've been getting tired

I don't think I can get any higher

Look at the date, we've expired

I really wanted to make it work

But I broke first

Being driven round the bend

It all had to end

Cause it takes its toll

On the man I am, the man I should be

And it gets old

When I'm losing touch with what I can't see

Is it too late?

Because I can't take it, I can't take it home with me

I never wanted to be

Still here, just history

Call me naive

But I thought we'd be

Recognised in time

We were so blind

But I've just got to accept

That more time was spent

Chasing all the little things

God what we could have been

Cause it takes its toll

On the man I am, the man I should be

And it gets old

When I'm losing touch with what I can't see

Is it too late?

Because I can't take it, I can't take it home with me

I never wanted to be

Still here, just history

How will you

How will you

How will you remember me?

How will you

How will you

How will you remember me?

How will you

How will you

How will you remember me?

How will you

How will you

How will you remember me?

How will you

How will you

How will you remember me?

How will you

How will you

How will you remember me?

How will you

How will you

How will you remember me?

"Rituals" (2018)

Wake lyrics - Deaf Havana

You can fall, you can fall
You can fall, you can fall
You can fall, you can fall

Sinner lyrics - Deaf Havana

I'm so pathetic for ever thinking I'd change
When there are pieces of my past that I conveniently erased
I fell in over my head, you wouldn't understand
And now my brain is just a tired mess of all the things I've abandoned

And you should know, you never were an exception
I think I shut you out as a form of protection
Now there's an empty space that's growing in my head and in my home
Starting to show, I thought you should know

You can fall to your knees and pray
'Cause I'm a sinner now and I won't be saved
I've been lying to you more each day
'Cause I'm a sinner now and all my sins I've found
They won't wash away

I let you down, it's what I always do best
I found my way under your skin and somehow crept into your chest
There's all the hours I wasted trying hard to fool you
Well they were never enough, never enough to hide all the pain I put you through

(Wash away your sins)

You can fall to your knees and pray
'Cause I'm a sinner now and I won't be saved
I've been lying to you more each day
'Cause I'm a sinner now and all my sins I've found
They won't wash away

I should be living the life and not tryna fight it
Instead of giving it up I'm just tryna hide it

You can fall to your knees and pray
'Cause I'm a sinner now and I won't be saved
(I won't be saved)
I've been lying to you more each day (More each day)
'Cause I'm a sinner now, I'm a sinner now
(A sinner now)

You can fall to your knees and pray
'Cause I'm a sinner now and I won't be saved
I've been lying to you more each day
'Cause I'm a sinner now and all my sins I've found
They won't wash away

You can fall to your knees and pray
'Cause I'm a sinner now and I won't be saved
(I won't be saved)
I've been lying to you more each day (Been lying to you more each day)
'Cause I'm a sinner now, I'm a sinner now
(Fall to your knees and pray)

You can fall to your knees and pray
'Cause I'm a sinner now and I won't be saved
I've been lying to you more each day
'Cause I'm a sinner now, I'm a sinner now

Ritual lyrics - Deaf Havana

I left you alone by the roadside
I should've noticed it was all pride
That kept me from seeing you're a lost soul
Sinking deeper
Maybe the darkness took hold of me
Maybe I'm just scared of reality
To tell you the truth I've never felt so lost
I'm getting weaker
Slipping deeper

And I never said I'd be the one
So I'm letting you go, yeah I'm letting you go
And I never said I'm holding on
So I'm letting you go, 'cause it's better to know
Lately this is nothing more than a ritual between me and you
'Cause I never said I'm holding on
So I'm letting you go
Yeah I'm letting you go

We spoke about mostly the life in our heads
But all I could see was your bed
And somehow it left me feeling alone
But it's not just my fault
You keep pulling me in when you know that I'm easy involved
And my head's fucked, like a drunk I fell hard at your feet
And it's hard to believe, I believe every word that you wrote

And I never said I'd be the one
So I'm letting you go, yeah I'm letting you go
And I never said I'm holding on
So I'm letting you go, 'cause it's better to know
Lately this is nothing more than a ritual between me and you
'Cause I never said I'm holding on
So I'm letting you go

And I said something stupid like
"Fill my veins with poison, I'm so tired of all the noise"
'Cause if I go I'll go out now with silent grace and poise
'Cause I'm always broke and I'm almost broken

And I never said I'd be the one
So I'm letting you go, yeah I'm letting you go
And I never said I'm holding on
So I'm letting you go, 'cause it's better to know
Lately this is nothing more than a ritual between me and you
'Cause I never said I'm holding on
So I'm letting you go

Hell lyrics - Deaf Havana

Do you remember when you woke up in that t-shirt you found
At the back of my bedroom underneath all your doubts
That you had in your head, oh they were there all along
But you just couldn't see my dark side with those rose lenses on

And I don't really know what I'm doing
And I'm sorry I put you through this
But I never said I'd treat you right

I told you I wish I could see you
I guess I was lonely
You chose to ignore what I said
Well I guess you just know me

And oh you feel low right now
3AM pouring out your soul right now
3AM wishing I could hold you now
Oh I should you tell you how

I just don't really know what I'm doing
And I'm sorry I put you through this
But I never said I'd treat you right
(Well I never said I'd treat you right)
But I never said I'd treat you right

But I never said I'd treat you right

Just as I woke up
Put your face to the back of my mind
Told myself I was feeling fine
But then you call me up
And said that we don't talk
But when we do I'm just crossing the line
But it felt good at the time
Oh oh, it should be me instead
But I guess it's just you were the fool because I never said I'd...

But I never said I'd treat you right

But I never said I'd treat you right

I never said I'd treat you right

I still remember when you woke up in that t-shirt you found
At the back of my bedroom underneath all your doubts
That you had in your head, oh they were there all along
You said I didn't have a dark side, you were wrong

Oh I never said I'd treat you right
I never said I'd treat you right
'Cause I can never treat you right, oh

Holy lyrics - Deaf Havana

I was a liar
I'll never be holy in your eyes
But you'll never be either
Cause I know that underneath your smile
Hide the nights that you regret
And the days you can't forget
Cause you know me
And we'll never be holy

I been keeping to myself
And looking back over my shoulder
Trying to live my life just like somebody else
And forget all the empty words I told you

And unless these demons follow me home
It's easy to bury the guilt on my own
Now my fears will finally swallow me whole
Cause I wasn't honest
And you never wanted to admit that

I was a liar
I'll never be holy in your eyes
But you'll never be either
Cause I know that underneath your smile
Hide the nights that you regret
And the days you can't forget
Cause you know me
And we'll never be holy

It's a sickness I can't seem to shake
Until I wake up alone and ashamed
Or a tie that I'm too scared to break
In case I'm drunk and I need you again

I was never the one
I was always just easy
And you were only enough to follow through
Maybe when you're alone
And you look in the mirror
You can feel in love as I do

Just unless these demons follow you home
It's easy to bury the guilt on your own
Now your fears will finally swallow you whole
But I wasn't honest
And you never wanted to admit that

I was a liar
I'll never be holy in your eyes
But you'll never be either
Cause I know that underneath your smile
Hide the nights that you regret
And the days you can't forget
Cause you know me
And we'll never be holy

And we'll never be holy
No we'll never be holy
Cause the nights that you regret
And the days you can't forget
Leave you lonely
And we'll never be holy

I'll always be a mess if I keep living this way
Despite all of my flaws I still hope you're okay
I don't know if I can honestly say
That it's getting better
But at least together
We were holy

Saviour lyrics - Deaf Havana

I'm scared of talking in my sleep 'most every night
In case my conscious has a change of heart and suddenly decides
To let her know the darkest secrets I keep bottled up inside
Maybe it's time I found a better place to hide
Or just somebody to confide in, yeah

I was never holding on to anything more than a memory of you
'Cause every time you proved me wrong I ended up drunk and afraid of
What I'd become, undone, I should be ashamed for thinking I can save you
For thinking I can save you
I'll never be your saviour

I must be broken 'cause I saw myself in you
And every fleeting fragile moment that you somehow struggled through
'Cause even now I still find comfort in the corners of your mind
It's been killing me for years but somehow keeping me alive

I was never holding on to anything more than a memory of you
'Cause every time you proved me wrong I ended up drunk and afraid of
What I'd become, undone, I should be ashamed for thinking I can save you
For thinking I can save you
I'll never be your saviour
I'll never be your saviour

ANd you say if we're talking bout love
And if I'm so lonely
Then why don't you love me like I do
If we're talking 'bout trust
Then how can you trust me
Is it just me, whoa-oh-oh

I was never holding on to anything more than a memory of you
'Cause every time you proved me wrong I ended up drunk and afraid of
What I'd become, undone, I should be ashamed for thinking I can save you
For thinking I can save you
I'll never be your saviour (become undone)
I'll never be your saviour (become undone)